So I believe that this is the fourth time I have created a blog so hopefully this one will be more of a success rather than a "post two and a half times and get bored" type a thing. In case you are confused/lost/other, my name is Shailyn. I am currently 19 years old and I recently returned from the Zion Australia Adelaide mission...early. What happened? Well, let me tell you...
On March 18, 2013 I received my mission call.
"Dear Sister Hamel:
You are hereby called to serve as a missionary of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. You are assigned to labor in the Australia Adelaide Mission...You should report to the Provo Missionary Training Center on Wednesday, July 31, 2013..."
I had never felt as scared, nervous, excited, or happy at any point in my life as I did in the moments that it took me to spit out those words in front of my family and few friends. It was real. I was going to be a missionary in Australia! The first one in my family of seven kids of which I am the fifth. I could not have been happier.
Much to my surprise, the time flew by. I was never too nervous. I was ready. I could not wait to serve. This was my time. The Lord had called ME! After months of waiting, 3 farewell talks, a setting apart, and lots of tears, my mom and sisters drove me up to Utah to say their final goodbyes for what we had anticipated to be 18 months. They drove me up to the curb, helped me get my luggage out, hugged me quickly, and that was it...

I was a missionary in the Provo MTC for 11 days and they were the best 11 days ever! I had the best companion, remarkable teachers, the greatest district and zone, and an incredible time. I learned more in those 11 days than I had learned in my life up until that point. After those 11 days, I was lucky enough to be sent straight to Australia and after a canceled flight, a night in a hotel, and 24 hours of traveling I finally arrived in the beautiful city of Adelaide! That evening I was assigned my trainer, Sister Eldredge, who would teach, challenge, love, support, and humble me a lot in the next 7 and a half weeks.
Yes, I was only in Australia for 7 and a half weeks and it was the most challenging time of my life. My first week there the problem started. I knew if it kept getting worse that I would have to decide whether or not it would be best for me to return home. I hated that idea. I was so sure that would never happen. I knew that the Lord sent me there for a reason and He wouldn't send me home early...right? Wrong. It got worse. I tried my absolute hardest every day. I worked as much as I could for as long as I could. It was so hard and it only got harder. I'm not going to go into detail about what happened to me but it was awful. I prayed 20+ times a day for comfort. I was receiving blessings, guidance, council, and inspiration daily. The more I received, however, the more I lost control. I was alone and afraid. I knew nothing and no one. One night, I was hysterical. Every moment of every day was painfully difficult. I could hardly catch my breath long enough to call my Mission President's wife. She comforted me the best she could with loving words and reassurance that no matter what happened, everything was going to be alright. Her words echo in my mind still as I reflect on that night. She told me, "Sister Hamel, it is okay to go home. You are not a failure." After we hung up, I was still in pretty bad shape. Those words were so unsettling. The Lord needed me in Australia and I thought I was totally blowing it. I fought with those words for a matter of minutes before I finally took a deep breath and thought to myself, "Sister Hamel, maybe you should just go home." In that moment, I was overcome with a feeling of remarkable peace. The decision was made. I was going home and the following Thursday, I made the long journey back to the States.
Unfortunately, most people cannot understand any reasoning for an honorable early return much like I couldn't while I was serving. As a matter of fact, I was still struggling with it for the first couple weeks I was home. All I wanted was to go back. I couldn't think about anything else. I wanted to be a missionary. I wanted to complete the work that the Lord had called me to do. My call letter clearly stated that I was to serve for a period of 18 months...but now I've learned.
I learned many many things but there are 3 very important principles that I have learned through this series of experiences. First, I learned that the Lord's timing is perfect in an incomprehensible way. He knew what had happened to me and what would happen and he placed me in the perfect place at the perfect time with the perfect people to go through something that would change my life forever. Second, I learned that my family really is eternal in a very literal way. The moment I saw them again I knew it because I loved each of them with a love that could not possibly end. It consumed my whole being and I could not contain my emotions. The third and most important thing I learned is that the Atonement of Jesus Christ is real. He did not just suffer for our sins but for our pains, afflictions, and infirmities of every kind. Every single one. He was below all. I know that there is an extraordinary, perfect being who knows exactly what I have been through. He felt it long before I did. He knows me perfectly and I have never understood how that is possible. In fact, I still cannot fully understand it but I bear witness of Him. I know He lives. Jesus is the Christ, the Savior and Redeemer of the ENTIRE World. I know that to be true.
I loved my mission. It was the single greatest experience of my entire life and if I could go back right now I would. Unfortunately, I have at least a 6 month recovery time but that is just fine. Maybe one day I will return and complete the last 16 months of it but if not, I know that the Lord has his hand in all of this. I know that I left for a divine purpose and returned to fulfill that purpose. It may not have been anticipated but I know that He is with me and He is standing by me. I am still learning every day and becoming stronger with every passing moment. I have a testimony of missionary work and the divine and sacred calling it is to serve especially during this great and last hastening. I know the fullness of the gospel of Jesus Christ has been restored through the Prophet Joseph Smith and I know that President Thomas S. Monson is a true and living prophet of God today. I am grateful for both the Bible and the Book of Mormon and the messages of peace and joy that they bring into the lives of millions of people every moment. I love my Heavenly Father and older brother, Jesus Christ.
I hope this has helped those of you who were wondering about me get a little clarity. I am doing well. I have good days and bad but I know everything will work out exactly the way it is supposed to. Thank you to those of you who have supported and loved me through all of this. I cannot thank you enough. I love you all!
Also, if you want to read the emails I sent home while I was serving you can click here!